Polsky, Sarah. This Is How I Find Her. Chicago, Illinois: Albert Whitman and Company, 2013.

Sophia’s story is a precious one to me. She has felt primarily responsible for caring for her bipolar mother since she was 11 years old. At 16 she finds her nearly gone from an intentional overdose. She is nearly, understandably, destroyed. She must move in with her Aunt and Uncle and her cousin Leila - who used to be her best friend until inexplicably at 11 she is cut out from her life. Everything is painful and awkward in their home and at school. She worries about her mom, feeling a huge burden of guilt for not seeing that her mom had stopped taking the Meds that keep her stable. Sophia can't really see a way out.

But little glimmers of hope appear. She finds some satisfaction in working with her uncle after school and on Saturdays. There she meets Natalie, who seems to want to be her friend. She finds peace in her art class with a lovely teacher who seems to intuit just what Sophia needs. An English project forces her to confront her cousin Leila and her former best friend James, breaking down the walls between them. Her mother seems to be improving slowly in the hospital.

Sophia is a beautifully rendered character. Readers will be drawn to her sorrow while being frustrated with her stubbornness. They will feel her loneliness and root for her as she forges new relationships, however tenuously. The supporting cast is carefully developed as well. The exploration of family and family relationships is painfully honest and will resonate with readers. The adult relationships are astonishingly developed in this young adult offering. The revelations shared by Leila and James are painful, the lost time and hurt, stunning. But many of my readers will be drawn to these folks. The ending, without spoilers, just lovingly rendered with the help of a poetry project - be still my English teacher’s heart!

I will be talking this book that is a part of my e book collection very soon. I can see it pairing in a lovely way with Linda Vigen Phillips’ Crazy. Two young protagonists struggle with their mothers’ mental illness. I can also include in the discussion Laurie Halse Anderson’s The Impossible Knife of Memory. I think we can barely just begin to know the struggles of many of our students. Any book that I can offer to help them along in their journeys is a gift to me. This is How I Find Her is one such gift.